Drinky drinky

It's one day until cheat day, it's mostly been a good week, perhaps too many drinks, I'll explain.

Monday was a kind of hard day. Work and kids got me a bit wound up, so it didn't seem a big deal to start the week off with a couple of reds. I'll back this too. I don't mind if I drink 2x red wines every night, I don't think it hurts anything, and does give a nice feeling. But it was still a drinking start to the week. Tuesday, I had a day off to take my daughter to hospital. This hospital is a diet issue, because there is a lot of waiting, and plenty of cafe's and snack food around. I resisted (as did my wife), and even had a green tea out, for the first time ever (although they serve the cheap crap). But in the afternoon, it was just beautiful weather, we were making a nice roast dinner, I just cracked open the last 2 beers in the fridge, very nice. Had my 1.3 glasses of white wine with dinner, then 2 reds later on. Loved the setting, can't say I'm upset at all by this. Wednesday could have probably been a day off given Tuesday, but had the 2 reds. Thursday is probably where my guilt lies at. I was never going to take a break on Thursday, but had just the 2 reds by 9:30pm, and was feeling good. But the 2nd glass had gone down so easy, and I was having fun playing some PS3, I just went on to 4 glasses. I felt guilty, still feel guilty. I woke up a little hungover (my brain doesn't cope well with 4 reds), a reminder that this is not on. Where's that self control now?

I'm not going to beat myself up over this at all. All week I ate very well, no snacks, especially good given I had a few extra drinks during the week, and drinks can easily lead to a little cheating. I excersized a little most days, and my body is feeling great overall. Cravings have been up and down a bit all week, but I must say it usually leaves pretty quick. Like you'll crave something, then have a lingering feeling for 15 minutes or so about that craving, making you feel a little down, then it is rock solid gone, never to be thought about all night again. Drinks are the same. When you say no to a third, there is a 15 minute craving, then it's gone, all happy. I just didn't give myself a few minutes on the decision of the 3rd last night, and that cost me 2 more reds.

Tomorrows cheat day is looking like being a bit too rushed around for my liking, and it probably won't be as fun as I'd like for a cheat day. But I'll make the most of it, and make sure to snack out where I can.